Manchester United and English midfielder Ella Toone has written about her grief while trying to her father who died in September last year.
Nick Toone died three days shortly before his 60th birthday, after he was diagnosed with prostate cancer the day after he had looked at the Ella in the Euro 2022 final, a match in which England beat Germany 2-1 at Wembley.
Writing for the players' stands, Tone, 25, said she was still trying to process her feelings because it had come as a shock, largely because her father had not explained to her how sick he was until the end.
“When he passed, it was a big shock, even for some of the people closest to him, because nobody barely knew he was sick,” Toten wrote. 'People now ask me:' Why didn't you tell us? “And I'm so of it, I didn't know either.
“In recent months I have tried to sort it out, try to get rid of it. It is still raw. I still feel the pain in digging, the feeling that he no longer has here.
“Even now, sometimes I think he will come back, as if he is waiting in the other room until I can get the corner around the corner so that he can have a joke or some chatter … he was always in an end. “
Toon paid tribute to the role of her father in her career, by bringing her to her first exercises and promising her £ 10 at the age of six for every goal she scored for the Astley and Tyldesley Girls team in Greater Manchester – a promise He costs £ 100 in her first competition.
Toone remembered how her parents would travel home and leave to view all her games as a professional and then watch recordings at home before her father called her to talk to them.
Toone said her first indication that something was wrong when he looked sick after the opening match of the euros, the 1-0 victory of England in Austria in Old Trafford, and then missed the match against Norway that was played in Brighton.
But both parents kept telling toone that her father simply “didn't feel too good”, and she did not get a fuller photo until after the 4-0 FA Cup final of Manchester United on Tottenham last May, a competition in which the opener scored. That was the first time that cancer was called.
“I am still processing,” Toone added. “This is my first attempt to really talk about it. Like Papa said, the Toones are not great in feelings. But I wanted to write this, for everyone who mourns and felt alone.”
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